It’s not about me

That statement is so loaded for me on many levels. Over the last couple of weeks I’ve realized my running is not about me. At least the marathon training part. The base camp training, I thought it was. Many of runs had the I can’t mantra and what was I thinking starting this. I am an injured person could never run a day before 3 years ago and that start was awful. I’m the slowest in my group and I just don’t know that I can do 26.2 miles. I mean seriously what was I thinking.

Then my first 1/2 was upon me. I was terrified. I went to this meeting a couple days before the race. It was the kick off party for world vision and the speakers talked from their hearts about their why. I was so inspired.  I was going to do this race not for me but the kids- I’m passionate about kids. The 1/2 got downgraded to a 5k, which was a bummer since I was finally siked enough for it.  But it was perfect for my training so I let it go. I had a friend tell me I inspire them and they want to run next year with me.

The next day at yoga, I found out that I was part of the reason someone decided to push themselves farther and do the marathon. I realized that although I’m slow and I’m not skinny, that I’m inspiring others to go farther and do better. This is totally NOT about me.  Last night in Bible Study, there was a verse that we reviewed. And it was another reminder that my job here isn’t to think only about me and I want but how I can help the world. (Think David)

I’m going to sponsor a girl through World Vision to have that constant reminder that this is not about me at all.

I’m going to leave you with this Bible verse today as it has really spoken to me recently:

Jeremiah 6: 16 This is what the Lord say:

Stand by the roadways and look
Ask about the ancient paths:
Which is the way to what is good?
Then take it and find rest for yourselves.
But they protested, “We won’t!”

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I don’t wanna

This was my attitude today. I sat on my staircase going back and forth making every excuse to not run.

I haven’t slept well in a couple of days
It’s a time of day where more people will see me
I can do later this evening- I should just work on the front yard
My legs are sore from working out yesterday

When I had turned my music back off and thought about how many times that I didn’t really run later or make it out there. I stood up and walked outside and just went. The hill is always first thing out of the house. I started out a bit rougher than I normally do. But I kept going. The wind was awful, which normally throws me offbeat. I can’t breathe running like that. But guess what I kept going.

I decided to run to the pond instead of the way I was going to go. When I got there, I ran it twice. My thought was, I knew that I was not going to run as far as I wanted to. So this got me that little bit further. And then I ran an extra block when I got back to my neighborhood. OH and the hill after the pond, it was hard and I had to walk more than I wanted at that time.

But I have to say, I made it where I wanted and what was awesome about it all. When I got home, I checked my miles and they were all even. I’ve never done that! I usually run my first my mile fast, mile 2-3 are usually a little slow and from there even slower. Sometimes I’ll speed it up here and there but I’m never even. Every mile was about the same. Amazing.

So my point is go out there conquer the miles and kick arse doing it. I didn’t run as fast as I would have liked but it was truly awesome what I did accomplish!

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What was I thinking

I seriously think this almost every time I run. I mean if I struggle with this 2 miles, 6 miles or whatever I just did today, how the heck am I going to do the 13.1 in 3 weeks or the marathon. I mean really, 26.2 miles. My God, yup my God. And I say to myself, He is the one that placed it on my heart that day in Church and I know He will be the only one to pull me through.

So how do I keep going? Well it helps that I have to beat myself. I’m not in competition against anyone else (I just don’t want to be last). I’m in competition against myself so today my 2 mile run was better than my Saturday group run, which lets talk about that.

Okay, I really sucked on Saturday. I mean I probably know people who walk faster than I did those 2 miles. Every single person who ran with me was at least 1/8 of a mile a head of me. I just couldn’t run. I don’t know why exactly. I mean probably the fact that my headphones didn’t work right away- duh should have made sure everything connected before starting. So I started really slow, then allergies and the cold got to me while taking off. But here’s one thing that was really awesome about it. I’m going back next week. Sure I was upset that I was so bad but I survived being last and I know I can do better so I will keep going. It is great being part of a group for running. I am thinking about joining a 2nd group that goes out on Tuesdays and that will balance out my week.

Psalm 9:10, “Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.”

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Running for a cause

Okay for the last 2 weeks I have wanted to get in front of a computer to blog but wow does life get in the way. 🙂

So 2 weeks ago, I wanted to tell you how bad not stretching is for you.  As you know, I typically yoga before and after a run and on my “rest” days. Well that 1 week, I just didn’t have the time. Found myself running in more ways than 1 and not having time to stretch much (yoga is more than that but for this week…). Well come Monday after that morning run- oh my was a I sore. I started a new to me app- Nike + Run. But I did not run anything that was much different that week from normal.

I came to realize how important stretching or my yoga really is. I don’t get sore- sore. I get that oh my I worked out sore a bit but not that I can’t move sore when I do my yoga. Funny thing is yoga makes me so much stronger so I can feel that workout sore from that too. I love it! And will not risk that again.

So I mentioned the app- Well I have to tell you how much I love this app- seriously! I have slowed way down which is a bit uncomfortable, especially at first but it’s made me a better runner. I can run for longer times and my sprints are getting much faster. I love it! seriously to the point I am obsessed. lol

So tonight was the big really learning about what I am doing by signing up for this race with world vision. I learned about the cause more. So there are kids that have to walk miles for clean water. They talked particularly about this one girl who is now 13. She has been walking since she was 4- 3 miles to get dirty water every day for her family. She risks so many things in this walk- animal predators and people ones. Scary stuff. I learned that it only took $50 to get her clean water for a lifetime. This is what I am doing raising money for kids like her to get water- no clean water, not the dirty stuff that kills 800 children a day!- for a lifetime. I don’t know how I could have said no- 26.2 miles- I said never. Well here is never and I am going to kick never’s Arse!

If you want to sponsor me-  https://www.teamworldvision.org/participant/106684

Whatever you can do helps- 5 people donating $10 would get that water for one for a lifetime so that is just a start. I want to get water for 200 kids. That is saving the lives of 1/4 who pass away each day from dirty water! Crazy. But there are so many others running with me. One person cannot do it all but together we are a beast and we will tackle it together. Thank you all for your support- love to you!

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Failing Forward

It is an interesting concept, isn’t it? Taking your failures and using them to kick butt moving forward. Talk about motivation to get back out there and go. This past season, I promised myself that I wouldn’t let it get bad. As soon as the cold weather hit, I got a gym membership. I started going. Problem- I could NoT get my eating under control.

So it’s just Thanksgiving, okay just a couple weeks until Christmas and so on. Then the exercise lessened. Do you ever feel like when it is cold out that you just cannot do anything but cuddle under a warm blanket and drink something warm? Oh I’m such a sucker for this. Throw in some Gilmore Girls or Harry Potter and I won’t be moving for a week.

So I knew I’ve gained back some of my weight. Yesterday I forced a weighin with measurements and pics. Oh how I hate that scale! So yes, I’m back where I started (well almost). And we are talking like 2 years ago!!! I really had a tougher year in general- seriously this weight gain was more over the last 9 months or so.

The measurements hurt a bit (and if I was still getting measured by a trainer, I probably would have cried). But my pics weren’t horrible. I can tell in the mid-section so much but my face hasn’t really returned yet so there is still hope.

Seeing all this- I have 2 options

  1. Crawl back in the hole that has been keeping me warm this winter
  2. Kick Arse and get this back on track now

fun fact: husband is on board so will make it easier. We are trying the Paleo diet for 28 days and will assess and decide if we need to add any foods back sticking to a clean diet mentality or if we will continue mostly with Paleo. I’ll try to post updates on the food too as we go. Alright off to the gym!

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Week 2- Year of Marathon

This week was slower for me on the treadmill. I think I have a cold or at least been fighting one. I ended up taking off on Thursday, snow came through and I had to being Hermione to the vet for a followup after her surgery.

On Sat (the day I try to spend as much time as possible there), I started on the elliptical to try something different and see if that would help with timing. It did backfire on me slightly but only because I was right next to the fan and that flared up my allergies/ cold. I only made it 15 mins on that before switching to the treadmill. I did a lot of hills because I was struggling more with breathing after the fan thing… I finished my first book, which this has been great to do to keep me on the machines longer. I don’t think it helps much with the speed though. I ended the week gaining a mile. 12 weeks until my first race of the year… 20 until my first 1/2 marathon, and 38 weeks until the marathon. So I have to start gaining a mile in my longs runs pretty much every other week starting in Feb.

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Week 1 – Year of Marathon

2018 has started off a bit on the rocky side. Monday was a tough run after celebrating the night before. I do not do well for a few days after staying up past 10 (really 9 but lately its been more like 10). I was on the treadmill for 47 mins but barely could do 3 miles.

Tuesday was yoga day and it really felt good to do this after yesterday’s workout. I started a 30 day series on You Tube. I also did 10 mins of Pilates abs. Wednesday- back to the treadmill. Today was much better but I couldn’t find my headphones which was not as bad as I was dreading it to be. I did 40 mins running and 20 walking on a incline fast paced. I did day 2 of yoga in the evening. The run was great but did get a bit tired at the end. Thursday is repeat run day but at slower pace. I was very sore this day so although I spent 56 mins at the gym, I was much slower- I was exhausted from sleeping hard too, not a great combo. Did day 3 of yoga that evening.

Friday is always yoga day. It was 33 mins this day and normally I aim for an hour total but did day 4 of the series and was still pretty sore. Saturday morning, I got up late, had my morning coffee and forced myself off to the gym- long run day. Got there and the parking lot was completely full. I mean even the school side was packed. I figured a mix of things going on here but thought fine, I’ll just go this evening. I headed out to visit my day and by the time I got home, I barely wanted to do my yoga routine but at least squeezed that in. Then made the excuse on Sunday that if I run, I’ll throw my next week’s run off so I just did yoga again.

Eating wise, I did okay. I haven’t started the Paleo but I’ve been doing better with avoiding cream in my coffee. This is hard. I’ve cooked more from home but did drive out to get a deep dish on Friday night. I need to start making this from home. I know it. I did pull out the pressure cookers last night and made an excellent version of our Chipotle Chicken and rice with veggies.

I do wonder how I’ll ever make it to marathon ready but at the same time, signed up for a couple more races that will make me want to run more sooner. No said it would be easy but I’m glad I have my journal to really take note of how I am feeling what I am doing and to try an work harder to the future. It is always just 1 step at a time and I know I can tackle anything I set my mind too even if my mind tries to counter it.

For those just starting out in running- imagine yourself doing it as much as possible. See the success and you will do it. Don’t let that piece of you that says nope never going to happen take over, counter it every time with a vision of your crossing that finish line. Start with the starting line, all those people around you, where you are starting, speed you want to go (I personally like the back so I can force myself slow at first than I do better over all), imagine the trail and those around you as you run, some will pass you and you will pass some, feel the breeze, see the hill, hear your music and even imagine the water stations, how you will run up to it, pause to grab a water cup, drink it down as your walking away, throw your cup and a way you go again. See that finish line now, now you push it forward, run more, you want to finish strong, you see that camera coming soon, try to smile with your body so you don’t look so dead in the photo (I hate how I look crossing the line every time- lol) and there you go, you did it!

Multiply this for longer races and you will get there. You can run and you can do this for your workout plans too. Get your mind wrapped around you doing this. You are strong.

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It’s okay to cheat

on your diet people- get your head out of the gutter. I would never condone hurting another person or breaking a commandment.

I’m already seeing posts on how many have already cheated on their 2018 diet. Who cares? Seriously it is okay. Do not let this define you or beat yourself up about it. I’ve been there, done that. It gives you a great excuse to quit and are you a quitter??? No!

So yes, you had that delicious coffee treat that cost you 500 calories. oh man. or maybe it was those leftover Christmas cookie- so yummy. Nope, it was those delicious red velvet cupcakes that I made with the yummy cream cheese frosting (Am I a genius in baking or what?). Yes, we all do it but we cannot let it define us.

Today, we get up and start again- no I hate that as much as I hate the word diet. We continue on with our practice. We go out and exercise again, we continue eating clean today and we do not let 1 little cheat define our new year. I know I am not. I’m not letting the scale define me either but I’ll save that for a different day rant. lol

Now go out there and kick some butt!

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Goals and Dreams

I read recently how goals are dreams with deadlines. I really like this way of looking at things. Goal setting is hard work but dreaming is easy. The reason that I love this saying though is in order to make any goal come true, you really have to dream it out. Think about the very thing that you want at that very moment. You need to imagine each step it takes to get that thing all the way down to the finest details. What are you wearing, what are you doing, where are you going, what are you driving to get there, what color is the room, how about the decor? Each one of these details are vital to making your dreams come true.

So in goal setting, it is important to follow the well-known SMART system. Make sure the goal is specific and that you have a time-frame in mind. Do not limit yourself by expectations though. Imagine yourself in the place you really want to be. Something that you can track your progress is important too but do not limit yourself to only picking something easy because of this. If you can do it in your mind, you can do it. Now obviously you may not fly a broomstick but at one time, a plane was unimaginable. The best thing you can do for yourself is to dream. Each day imagine each step it will take to get to your goals.

An example that I am working with right now is. I get up and imagine my workout for the day. How far am I going to go, what am I wearing, what am I listening to, how do I feel, what is the speed, what is my intention. I visualize it all out as soon as I get up to make it happen. My goal with this is to improve each workout, to get faster and stronger. Through these visualizations, I will have already convinced my mind that I did so doing it is not a problem.

This is how you build your confidence in your goals. No going back because you let your mind believe you can’t go any further. Time to convince yourself differently. I have a few books that I can recommend to help you get there. Take that leap of faith and do what you dreamed you can do.

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Christmas time and keeping on track

This is absolutely my favorite time of year. Since the moment that I got married, I have been doing everything I can to make this feeling last. It comes earlier (except the last couple of years, we have waited until Nov). Decorating is so much fun. Putting up each special ornament, the ones the kids spent so much time making when they were little to our fancy ones that we spent a bit of money on. I love pulling out each Santa, the nativity sets, my stop in for cocoa sign, it all is just so wonderful.

Shopping- well I have this love/ hate relationship with this. I do not like the big crowds or if people are pushy (yes, I avoid black Friday with everything I have- lol). But to find the gifts that I know each person will love, that is something special.

Baking- Here is the where the trouble tends to sneak in a bit. I love to bake and I’m good at it. It is so hard to resist my frosting (and I really am not the biggest fan otherwise) or my carmel- oh so yummy). Then my sister makes my other favorites and wow am I done.

Cooking- Yes, this is another downfall for me. I’m great at it but the problem is this time of year, I get soooooo busy that we do nothing but eat out. Yuck! And then the pounds start to come….

And last but not least- exercise. Yup I make every excuse not to make it to the gym during this time of year. So what am I going to do to get back there? Well I went out a bought a few new things that I am excited to use and I hate to waste money. New running shoes- yay! These are my favorite. A new style of sports bra from Victoria Secret. I have always loved them for support as they have the double layering with the clip and zip. This one is lighter weight though and does not have the zip so I’m excited to see what I think. Then there is the new running log book. Yay! Something to keep focused on the marathon.

I also bought a Paleo book to try eating better. I’m committing to the 28 days of strict eating and will start to add somethings back but watching closely what I eat. Lastly I bought a new bag that I can carry my purse in if I want but most importantly carry my planners and some notebooks to stay really focused this year. I’m looking forward to an awesome 2018- how about you?

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