Starting Over

This should be such a familiar concept by now. Get off track, gain weight, get out of habits, and then start over again. The will power it takes to start over each time is the hard time. You feel like why bother I’m just going to fail. I’ve always tried to keep my focus on health. At least that was what I told myself for the last 10 years. The 10 before that, I probably would have said it was for vanity reasons. The truth is, at least 1/2 the reason I wanted to work hard was for vanity reasons and honestly those don’t work for me anymore.

I had a recent scare in health, which there is no explanation for and I wouldn’t have thought it to be so major if I wouldn’t have gone into the ER. If I would have waited another day or 2, I probably would have gone through the same motions. Eat clean and I won’t have this episode again but then it would have been forgotten because I wouldn’t have had the unknown pancreatitis that appeared. My doctor believes that it truly was a gallstone that figured it’s way out without needing surgery. Fact is those come back especially if you don’t watch your diet and exercise. And I found out it is a balance between too much and too little.

Of course clean eating is a must. So here I am starting over again but with definitely a new goal in mind. And this time I can tell you, it is truly for my health. Where do I go from here? All I know is it will take one step at a time. Will be working on my Beach Body (stayed tuned- thinking about becoming a coach), starting over in my training for running (again more to come), and eating clean.

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I was in a marathon

Notice how I say in and not finished. That is right, I didn’t finish. I ran 12 miles before getting on the bus. I am disappointed but yet proud. Three, four years ago, I would have said you are very crazy to even think that I would run a 1/2 marathon, let alone a full one. A little over a year ago, I was in awe of a friend of mine and at the same time thought she was crazy. The same day that she was running the marathon so was another person in my Church. And she had a message that came on the big screen at Church. She was bringing this cause to our Church. I discovered that day how there were children around the world who had to walk an average of 2 miles each way to get water. The water was not usually clean and makes the them and their families sick. They, many times, cannot go to school because they are either walking to get the water or paying for drinking it with illness. But they don’t have a choice. This is their life… except… that World Vision exists. Their goal is to help a village to get wells that provide clean water to all the children there and their families.

So how can I help, run a marathon like this leader was doing. 12 of us signed up from the Church and started this journey. I ran every week 4 days a week. The training got longer and harder. I was in last place the further we ran. I did my first half marathon and that was a struggle but that had a lot more to do with the day than anything. After that was a 14 mile run that I rocked at. Then it seemed to get slower again. I got hurt on the 18 mile run- my own doing. Then the allergies kicked in and I couldn’t seem to get a good run in until the taper. Back to normal. I was feeling pretty good but still nervous about finishing in the 6 hours allowed for the race.

As the days got closer, all I knew was I was going to do what I could. Driving there and the crowds definitely had me nervous but we figured that all out. I got to the Church yesterday morning just fine. It was beautiful and the energy was electric. We sang, prayed, and then gathered for the most amazing clapping to cheer on our team. Amazing. Then our fearless leader said on to Saint Paul and it just got real- 26.2 miles ahead of us. We walked over to the start. I got into the corral and paced a bit while doing some warm up stretches. The first corral was released and then the second one. We were up next and there were a lot of people around me. My plan originally to stick with my 4 min run, 1 min walk. There were so many people around me and I really didn’t want to start walking with them all there.

I ran probably 2 miles before I saw 2 ladies who were doing the same intervals on my training. So when I saw them walking, I gave myself a break finally. Then I did that a bit, not my perfect 4-1 but walked when I felt like I needed a min. I believe this is what hurt me. I ran too much in the beginning and didn’t give myself the breaks that I needed. But the race I did run was exhilarating. Their were kids all along the path that were counting how many high fives they could get. Adorable. There were bands playing and people cheering me for the whole 12 miles that I made it. It was truly an amazing experience. So, yes, I am a little sad, especially when I see my team members telling each other that they are a marathoner. I mean I am so incredibly happy for them for that accomplishment- just sad that I’m not a part of that team. I will be one day, just not now. I am so proud of myself for my 12 miles and bringing 43+ kids clean water. This is what I am passionate about and the whole reason I was even running to begin with. I would have said no to anyone else. I accomplished something so much bigger than I ever thought possible. I will continue training as I have been only starting from the beginning and working on my speed as well as diet to accomplish a better well being. I know that when I work on less sugar, I have less pain which will be what I need to keep going.

Next year- I have a big surprise to my running journey and I’m excited about teaming up again. Not guaranteeing another marathon but will be accomplishing so much more.

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Only 14 miles

It is always weird to say that. Two weeks ago, I said only 12 miles. But then those 12 miles were hard. I ran/walked the 18 this last week. My feet hurt so bad and my mind was so done before my body. Getting this high in numbers is definitely a mind game. I do look forward to the 14 that I once dreaded this weekend but I do worry about the week/s that I have had recently. I can’t seem to get above 7 miles on my Tuesday runs and this week because of my feet hurting, I only ran 2.

I’ve been sick with my allergies so that is another hurdle that I have faced. I will run 5 tonight as I’m feeling that I can. It’s fitting through that my reading today brought me to not worrying about the future and focusing only on today. I’ve said that since the beginning of this journey but have found myself so focused on the upcoming weeks. Scared of these bigger miles, scared of my recent weeks and how they will affect me.

I do know I need to take a step back and focus today on the only 5 miles that I will be running and know that is all I need for today. Tomorrow is a different day full of all it’s own trouble as Jesus warned us about each day in Matthew 6:34. So now is the how…

I will bring my focus on what I am thankful for today. What I need to accomplish only for today and my Bible/ conversations with the Lord for today. I will still plan for the things that I need to (hotel stay, paying for the dinner, and things that are a necessity to get there) but only focus on what today’s tasks are.

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My first half marathon

Wow, what an experience. I read up so much on things to do while running over the last few months. Nothing you read will truly prepare you for this experience. It was awesome but at the same time for me personally very hard- I’ll tell you why, which I pray that you don’t have to experience that part.  This day starts out the night before really. You always prep for a race the day before. I kept telling myself throughout the day that I need to keep drinking the water.

That evening, we had a spaghetti appreciation dinner and it was about an hour from home. I didn’t get back to town until I pretty much wanted to go to sleep but needed to run to Target yet, as I still had to pick up my energy for the race. When I got home, I double checked to make sure everything was in order for the morning and went to bed. I’m not sure if it was nerves or excitement that kept waking me up but it made for a lesser night of sleep. If someone could please tell me how they sleep before a new or bigger race than you’ve done before, that would be great as I never sleep well before a new one.

I got up at 415 am to get my day started. The plan was to meet a friend and drive in together and as I was preparing to leave, she texted me that she had been sick all night. Okay, so now I run it alone. Well not really because I have over another 100 World Vision runner out there but really at this time, I’m thinking about 1 that I might be able to run with. So I think that because I don’t have to drive that little bit out of the way, I’m good to leave a little later. Regretted that later, as I really didn’t think about the parking…

My daughter came with to cheer me on with the other WV supporters- so awesome! We got there shortly after 630- wanted to be there shortly before. But at least we didn’t miss out on prayer. We took our running groups’ pictures and said prayer. Then off to the bathrooms. I wish I would have realized there would be porta potties just a bit down the road as the lines were long and this made it so when I got out, it was time to go and everyone already had taken place. I looked for the 1 person and couldn’t find her so I settled my self in back by “the last runner” pacer. I figured she had to be the 15 minute mile and I knew I would be good because I’m definitely faster than that. But I was scared to pace myself anywhere else.

The night before, I was told to enjoy it. Pause for a moment and take pictures throughout so I did that. So off we go. I found a nice rhythm.  Around mile 3, I started to see runners on their way back and this is where the amazing starts. Every WV runner out there is cheering every other WV runner on. I’m not kidding. you hear us screaming at each other the whole way. encouraging each other. It was so amazing. I felt like I could do anything and not just because I was being encourage because I wanted to encourage them.

I wanted to seek each one of them out and tell them how great they were doing. I kept running so well. Then there is that stretch between the 2 turn-arounds that it is just you out there running. Because, Siri didn’t like me screaming so much, my music was off. Which this was all okay. I got a lot of time to really think and talk with God. I got excited to see my cheer station at mile 8 and ran on through that to get some water right after. Mile 9 came up next where I took a selfie walking backwards so I could get the number and not stop. Yes, great talent. I took pictures of the river and other views.

Well then, after all the prep that I thought I did, my period decided that I was doing to much and it was going to be more prominent than it had been. It sucked. For 2 miles, that was all I could feel and I sat there questioning what should I do next. I continued on and finished the race. It was in those 2 miles though that I realized my strength. I was tired, messy, rained on, and mentally drained. I turned on my music and said, I’m doing this. I had this amazing crew at the finish line and the announcer was standing right there when I crossed. He heard them cheering me on and called me out by name. It was truly, truly amazing. I ran off to change (which in a porta potty sucks) but it was truly the experience this far.

 

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8 miles

All week I’ve been pumping myself up for today’s run. I’ve been running 5 miles on Tuesdays now, I’ve been here before, last week I did 10. Then this morning came. I so did not want to wake up. Waited until last minute. I had this moment of I don’t want to run today. I’m tired. This is where I am so glad I do this with a group, no way I would have done it on my own today. Started running behind. It was foggy out. Started thinking about all the animal possibilities. Forgot about 1 possibility and thank God, I did not think about that one (black bears have been spotted all around cities lately). Get there just as we are going out. started off what felt slow but was a good pace for me. I found that out when I hear my watch going off. It felt like such a hard two miles of getting going though. The fog scared me a bit and then for some reason the geese were noisy.

But it was beautiful. God was sure in full artistry this morning. He had some rays coming through the trees and fog like I’ve never seen but it was truly amazing. Then I started to talk with him. I started thinking about all my troubles and how I keep getting sucked into this negativity that I ever so hate being in. How I just feel so distant lately no matter how hard I try to make my time for Him, how I’ve been faltering. I talked about the children in Africa and asked Him to help me to remember why I am doing this, as well as prayed for the people supporting me and several others in my life. My next 3 miles were amazing. I ran them so well and felt pretty great. Mile 6 was harder. The tiredness took over. I tried to stretch it out and then tried to do my energy treats and water. Sure I felt like I could run again but nothing like I was. The heaviness in the air took over. I was drenched and so very tired. I ran/ walked the last two miles but they felt so hard to do. I finished and I was not in the right headspace again. I stopped for a min to check in but I just couldn’t socialize like normal. The thing is, it does not bother me at all coming in last, it bothered me that I felt like I just get this run together. It felt like 10 miles was easier than 8. I know the humidity this morning really played into it all. But I just had a hard time getting over it this morning.

I love my running. I love inspiring others and I remind myself of this. I remind myself of how far I have come. I mean who thought this fat little girl would ever run 8, let alone 10 or 26.2 miles. Not me! But here I am doing it. I remind myself that I finished. I did it. It wasn’t beating my time from 2 weeks ago but I got out there and did it. 1/2 way through my run, I was told, “I am so thankful for you. You make me feel so good because you help me to remember it’s not about being the fastest”. I love that! This is someone who was afraid to run but I have inspired her with others to just go out there and do what you can do. I need to remember to thank her because really today she is what I needed. This is not easy but I love doing it. And I totally kicked butt the rest of today and will continue to have awesome days that may not feel it at 1st but will totally rock.

I do have to give credit to my teammates for the outdoor pics as I kept wishing I’d take my phone out for pics but was afraid to slow down too much. I love that World Vision has brought us together and love what they are doing for the children in need of clean water and so much more. Find my link and help support me in this journey.

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Running the Distance

I did everything wrong for yesterday’s run. Not on purpose but without thinking. There are a few things you should always do when venturing out on a long run.

  • Eat good carbs the night before
  • drink lots of water the day before (good practice for every day but day before especially important)
  • get a good night’s sleep

Sure there are many more things to be doing for running purposes but I believe strongly these are the most important. And all 3 messed me up yesterday. So my long group run is normally on a Saturday morning. I get up early and meet my group and run it out so I prepare on Friday for this run and it is all great. Well, this Saturday the rain came in and brought lightning with it. The only time we don’t run is for lightning…

So I planned to run that night with a few people from the group that are near by. Well, I also had volunteered for intersection control for our Marching Band Festival.  I got the corner that is pretty much the last one to be torn down to protect all the people making there way over to the results,as well as our band performing last. This, as well as my daughter needing to get her case out of a locked vehicle caused me to be behind so I didn’t go.

I drank plenty of water but I also sweated out probably just as much standing on that corner. 98 degrees with 50-60% humidity. It was hot! Some kids did pass out on route, safely in the vehicles or pulled to the side of the road and cared for before it got that bad. I didn’t really eat any carbs that day, just by happenstance not really on purpose. And by the time I got settled in bed, it was pretty late. I woke up exhausted, on the late side and didn’t really eat anything before heading out. All mistakes. I hit my 4th mile and the heat just took over. I texted my husband to come get me and didn’t finish my 6 miles.

There was a lot playing in my head at this point. I failed. What if I just can’t do this? The runs only get longer. I know I can run longer than this but this humidity is only going to get worse. I am going to have to figure this out. Run earlier. Go to bed earlier once Em is done with marching bad or maybe figure out some rides for her. Just do it. You can do this. Stop letting the devil in. You protected yourself from injury and sickness which would have made it worse. It is okay. You will tackle this week differently and you can do better. just pay better attention to what you are doing and you will kick butt next time.

So I sign off today, pay attention to your body and what you are preparing yourself to do for each run. Listen to the experts- They know there stuff. And have fun with it, don’t stress.

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It’s not about me

That statement is so loaded for me on many levels. Over the last couple of weeks I’ve realized my running is not about me. At least the marathon training part. The base camp training, I thought it was. Many of runs had the I can’t mantra and what was I thinking starting this. I am an injured person could never run a day before 3 years ago and that start was awful. I’m the slowest in my group and I just don’t know that I can do 26.2 miles. I mean seriously what was I thinking.

Then my first 1/2 was upon me. I was terrified. I went to this meeting a couple days before the race. It was the kick off party for world vision and the speakers talked from their hearts about their why. I was so inspired.  I was going to do this race not for me but the kids- I’m passionate about kids. The 1/2 got downgraded to a 5k, which was a bummer since I was finally siked enough for it.  But it was perfect for my training so I let it go. I had a friend tell me I inspire them and they want to run next year with me.

The next day at yoga, I found out that I was part of the reason someone decided to push themselves farther and do the marathon. I realized that although I’m slow and I’m not skinny, that I’m inspiring others to go farther and do better. This is totally NOT about me.  Last night in Bible Study, there was a verse that we reviewed. And it was another reminder that my job here isn’t to think only about me and I want but how I can help the world. (Think David)

I’m going to sponsor a girl through World Vision to have that constant reminder that this is not about me at all.

I’m going to leave you with this Bible verse today as it has really spoken to me recently:

Jeremiah 6: 16 This is what the Lord say:

Stand by the roadways and look
Ask about the ancient paths:
Which is the way to what is good?
Then take it and find rest for yourselves.
But they protested, “We won’t!”

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I don’t wanna

This was my attitude today. I sat on my staircase going back and forth making every excuse to not run.

I haven’t slept well in a couple of days
It’s a time of day where more people will see me
I can do later this evening- I should just work on the front yard
My legs are sore from working out yesterday

When I had turned my music back off and thought about how many times that I didn’t really run later or make it out there. I stood up and walked outside and just went. The hill is always first thing out of the house. I started out a bit rougher than I normally do. But I kept going. The wind was awful, which normally throws me offbeat. I can’t breathe running like that. But guess what I kept going.

I decided to run to the pond instead of the way I was going to go. When I got there, I ran it twice. My thought was, I knew that I was not going to run as far as I wanted to. So this got me that little bit further. And then I ran an extra block when I got back to my neighborhood. OH and the hill after the pond, it was hard and I had to walk more than I wanted at that time.

But I have to say, I made it where I wanted and what was awesome about it all. When I got home, I checked my miles and they were all even. I’ve never done that! I usually run my first my mile fast, mile 2-3 are usually a little slow and from there even slower. Sometimes I’ll speed it up here and there but I’m never even. Every mile was about the same. Amazing.

So my point is go out there conquer the miles and kick arse doing it. I didn’t run as fast as I would have liked but it was truly awesome what I did accomplish!

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What was I thinking

I seriously think this almost every time I run. I mean if I struggle with this 2 miles, 6 miles or whatever I just did today, how the heck am I going to do the 13.1 in 3 weeks or the marathon. I mean really, 26.2 miles. My God, yup my God. And I say to myself, He is the one that placed it on my heart that day in Church and I know He will be the only one to pull me through.

So how do I keep going? Well it helps that I have to beat myself. I’m not in competition against anyone else (I just don’t want to be last). I’m in competition against myself so today my 2 mile run was better than my Saturday group run, which lets talk about that.

Okay, I really sucked on Saturday. I mean I probably know people who walk faster than I did those 2 miles. Every single person who ran with me was at least 1/8 of a mile a head of me. I just couldn’t run. I don’t know why exactly. I mean probably the fact that my headphones didn’t work right away- duh should have made sure everything connected before starting. So I started really slow, then allergies and the cold got to me while taking off. But here’s one thing that was really awesome about it. I’m going back next week. Sure I was upset that I was so bad but I survived being last and I know I can do better so I will keep going. It is great being part of a group for running. I am thinking about joining a 2nd group that goes out on Tuesdays and that will balance out my week.

Psalm 9:10, “Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.”

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Running for a cause

Okay for the last 2 weeks I have wanted to get in front of a computer to blog but wow does life get in the way. 🙂

So 2 weeks ago, I wanted to tell you how bad not stretching is for you.  As you know, I typically yoga before and after a run and on my “rest” days. Well that 1 week, I just didn’t have the time. Found myself running in more ways than 1 and not having time to stretch much (yoga is more than that but for this week…). Well come Monday after that morning run- oh my was a I sore. I started a new to me app- Nike + Run. But I did not run anything that was much different that week from normal.

I came to realize how important stretching or my yoga really is. I don’t get sore- sore. I get that oh my I worked out sore a bit but not that I can’t move sore when I do my yoga. Funny thing is yoga makes me so much stronger so I can feel that workout sore from that too. I love it! And will not risk that again.

So I mentioned the app- Well I have to tell you how much I love this app- seriously! I have slowed way down which is a bit uncomfortable, especially at first but it’s made me a better runner. I can run for longer times and my sprints are getting much faster. I love it! seriously to the point I am obsessed. lol

So tonight was the big really learning about what I am doing by signing up for this race with world vision. I learned about the cause more. So there are kids that have to walk miles for clean water. They talked particularly about this one girl who is now 13. She has been walking since she was 4- 3 miles to get dirty water every day for her family. She risks so many things in this walk- animal predators and people ones. Scary stuff. I learned that it only took $50 to get her clean water for a lifetime. This is what I am doing raising money for kids like her to get water- no clean water, not the dirty stuff that kills 800 children a day!- for a lifetime. I don’t know how I could have said no- 26.2 miles- I said never. Well here is never and I am going to kick never’s Arse!

If you want to sponsor me-  https://www.teamworldvision.org/participant/106684

Whatever you can do helps- 5 people donating $10 would get that water for one for a lifetime so that is just a start. I want to get water for 200 kids. That is saving the lives of 1/4 who pass away each day from dirty water! Crazy. But there are so many others running with me. One person cannot do it all but together we are a beast and we will tackle it together. Thank you all for your support- love to you!

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